Anxiety and its Struggle
What is Anxiety
Anxiety is not just a word, it’s a consumer, a persuader, a game-changer and sometimes an influencer. We surely worry, get stressed out, want a thing to get done early. But here we are not thinking about ourselves instead it’s about your beloved ones, families and friends. The only condolences you left with are:
- You’ll be fine
- You’ll feel relieved
- You’ll be ok by the time
- You’ll slay soon
- You’ll feel better.
The Struggling Face
Here are some confessions that I made for myself when overwhelmed by anxiety, with constant heartaches, pain, disturbing and manipulating vibes. I am not living in the future. I am not living for upcoming moments, celebrations and achievements.
Now, I am living for what I deserve. I am living for what I shouldn’t be living. I am living for what I don’t want to be. But eventually, I craved for advancements, improvements and perhaps self-actualization.
I know everything will be fine by time because time heals you, I know, I admire the fact and a staunch believer of it is what is it. But no, it is not what it should be, I was in aggression, anger, rage witnessing what shouldn’t be misled, caring what I shouldn’t be caring, living what shouldn’t be living for. I just can’t live for the future, so to these voices (the external ones), stop telling me that ill have best. I know it rightly, I’ll have it because I deserve it.
Just think that, I deserve to be happy; I deserve to be normal and I deserve to enjoy whole ME ambiance. I don’t deserve to be a dummy who stands still, no movements just watching people slaying with whatever they have. Genuinely, am grateful with what I have but I am not thankful for what I have done with myself so far without being ME.
This is what anxiety cost me, I lost the aptitude of appreciation of what I have in me. Anxiety was so on my nerves, eating and harming me like a parasite. Things never went the way I wanted, prayed and craved them to go. But Where there’s a will there’s a way.
I gave myself healthy discussions with myself and my friends too. I started accepting the features and embraced the reality that I can invest in myself. And I paid more attention to the fact that self-awareness in all type of trials is necessary, acknowledgement is indispensable too. It functioned when I started learning to reward, forgive and not blaming myself for the past.
Anxiety is tormenting when you don’t know what it is costing you and triggering to accept the toxic vibes. One can army his or her self when he or she is truly aware of whom to fight. Trial and error method can be strange though innate capability found in every human. It leads you to self-confidence, overcoming your defence mechanism tactics, concentrated in further trials and more compassionate for bringing back yourself.
When you know things, you judge, measure, choose, decide, accept, move, act, grow, evolve, improvise and then slay.
Embrace this life cycle and you’ll win over every chaos.
Written by: Bushra Ghayoor